Meet Jessica

I was naive. I had heard of people losing pregnancies before and even knew that a lot of people wait until they make it through the first trimester before announcing their pregnancies. But it barely registered that it could actually happen to me.

When I lost that pregnancy, it nearly broke me in half. My husband and I did not choose to wait to announce our pregnancy, so we then also had to announce its loss. And you know what happened then? A shockingly large number of women I know told me they had also suffered such a loss. These were women I was close to and knew well, but with many of them, it was the first I was hearing of their experiences.

Pregnancy and infant loss are such incredibly isolating experiences. They are so difficult and painful to talk about. So we don't. And that leaves so many women feeling alone in their grief (shame, guilt, depression, anxiety, the list goes on).

Something else we don't talk about much is how hard it can be to make it through a following pregnancy. Or actually bring home an infant. The fear and possibility of loss during these times can only be described by someone who has lived through them.

So, it is my hope that in sharing my story, I can help others feel less alone. I want to create a space where anyone experiencing the profound challenges of pregnancy loss, subsequent fertility struggles, possible pregnancies that follow, and/or the heightened anxiety in the early days of parenting can share, support each other, and find comfort in knowing we are not alone.

But please note:
I AM NOT a medical or mental health care professional. My intention is not to offer medical advice, but to create a safe and inclusive space for support through challenging times.

My Rainbow Journey

Some basics to know

I miscarried my first pregnancy.
I struggled with subsequent fertility challenges.
My rainbow and I both survived the pregnancy that followed even though I didn't believe we would.